Monday, November 21, 2011
I can eat: cruskits and butter, fruit, yogurt and sparkling water. I can't bare to cook, eat meat or fish, or even smell any kitchen smells. I have so many work events this time of year and have to hide this! I feel so sick.

Monday, November 14, 2011

So tired all the time with this pregnancy. Tired of work, need to be more masculine regarding getting this promotion. I've been pathetic and have gotten nowhere and I'll always regret it if I go off on maternity leave without getting promoted. I'll never get promoted if that happens.

Friday, September 16, 2011

Excited about Tori and Kate's upcoming albums.

Love Goyte. Can't get "Somebody that I used to know" out of my head.

Work is insane. I want to escape. Too much.

Saturday, August 27, 2011

The Ship Song project

The Ship Song Project - Sydney Opera House reinterprets Nick Cave's iconic song.

Performed by Neil Finn, Kev Carmody and The Australian Ballet, Sarah Blasko, John Bell, Angus and Julia Stone, Paul Kelly and Bangarra Dance Theatre, Teddy Tahu Rhodes and Opera Australia, Martha Wainwright, Katie Noonan and The Sydney Symphony, The Temper Trap, Daniel Johns and the Australian Chamber Orchestra.

Friday, May 27, 2011

Go for it.

Hubby really made me think after I went through some of my issues with him. He never pretends to be nice - he just says what he thinks - even if it seems harsh at first.

He told me I overthink and if I really want something, I just have to do it. If I keep thinking too much and being all unsure, I either don't have the drive or don't deserve it. He said I can either accept that I'm weak and accept that I won't ever get to the top of my game, because of being weak, or I can just be ruthless and get off my arse and go for it.

He's so right. If I think too much and don't just strive, I don't deserve to be the best. The really high achievers push and push and don't worry about all the crap I worry about - including having to feel important and having people make me feel certain ways - it's pathetic.

You know, these last few days I've really had a think about who cares about me.

I have friends, and plenty of people like me, but few are truly there for me - no matter what.

I shouldn't waste my thoughts on those who like me but who aren't there for me. It just hurts me when I feel they're all hot and cold and when they sometimes are wonderful and sometimes don't seem to care. I can't take that anymore.

I know who the special ones are - the ones who truly care. I will care for them and not let the others get anywhere near me.

So - I am no longer under anyone's spell. I give as much as I care to. I love as much as I need to. I am loyal and grateful as much as I should be.